Prompt – When you noticed adults whispering.
No one whispered in my house!
There were never any hushed conversations behind closed doors. I never heard urgent murmurs trail off when I entered a room. Nothing was whispered because everything was already hidden. Whispering would have required language, and language was not how things worked in my first family. What spoke instead were bodies, looks, pauses, and absences. Meaning traveled without words and landed hard.
I noticed it early. My mother and father communicated with eyes, arms, and shoulders. A look across the room could shut everything down. A kick under the table reminded everyone who was in charge. A tightened body carried far more information than a sentence ever could. A chair angled slightly away or a hand resting too long on a table meant something was about to happen, or had already happened, and no one was going to name it.
A sudden quiet did not mean peace. It meant pressure was building. Laughter that arrived too fast meant something was being smoothed over. Silence that lingered too long meant something had gone wrong and everyone was pretending it had not. The air itself felt instructional and stale. It taught me when to enter a room, when to disappear, and when not to come back. It taught me how and when to swallow words whole and pretend they never existed.
No one whispered in my house. Instead, we all performed containment in my first family. Feelings were managed, not spoken. Tension was absorbed, not released. I did not learn this because I was gifted or intuitive. I learned it because my nervous system depended on it. Survival required constant adjustment. That was the whispering. Not in words, but calibration. Read the room…soften your presence…do not add weight…and for all that is holy and righteous, do not be the reason something breaks.
It followed me everywhere!
When adults do not whisper, but instead communicate through omission, children learn that truth is dangerous. They learn that naming something risks collapse. They learn that harmony is maintained by not noticing what everyone already feels. I learned that survival lived in reading the room instead of living in my body. I learned to trust posture more than language and absence more than invitation.
Now, I am learning to translate posture back into language. I am learning to replace looks with words and silence with clarity. I am learning that healthy adults do not require children to become interpreters of tension. I say what I feel. I invite others to do the same. I name discomfort before it hardens into something heavier. I stay present when it would be easier to disappear. I refuse to let absence speak for me anymore.
No one whispered in my house, but much was being said.
And still, here is what I know to be true. Language can be learned, even later than it should have been. Silence can be interrupted without everything falling apart. The body can be taught that it no longer has to listen for danger in every room. I am building a life where words arrive gently and honestly, where meaning does not hide, and where nothing has to be carried alone. That feels like hope, not loud or dramatic, but a whisper at least!
Muddled Soma 